EMDR ... unplugged

From previous posts, I think I understand that when going through EMDR, other thoughts/feelings can begin to "flow". I am wondering if this is the situation I am experiencing?

I have had 2 sessions of EMDR with my therapist. She is not certified and is being mentored by another therapist in the same practice. The EMDR sessions were targeted at the un-true statement that I was at fault for the sexual abuse that I endured. The result was that my therpaist, skillfully, replaced that un-true statement with statements that I would like to be true ... that I was not at fault, as a minor, for the abuse that I endure.

This was done during the "grounding" portion. My therapist asked a series of leading questions; Do I believe that people are capable of lying? Do I believe that my abuser was capable of lying? Do I believe that my abuser lied to me when my abuser indicated that the abuse was my fault?

After the EMDR, I felt stronger, but weaker. I felt much trepidation that I could not trust anyone. I perceived this to be a result of the "outflow" of EMDR; in so much that I have not completed processing true/false statements and establishing a new processing pattern.

I spoke with my therapist regarding this issue; and expressed my concerns as to whether or not I could trust my therapist ... was I working with a person representing a genuine reflection; or a Jungian Mask?

My therapist became enraged and yelled at me. I felt betrayed in that I could not "tell my therapist anything" becuase of the unpredictablity of the therapist's emotive statements.

A second time, I addressed my concerns and was again met with an angry and defensive attitude. Again, I felt betrayed, and even more so, an abuse of power and authority as I felt "trapped" inside my therapist's office while my therapist was secure in the office surrounded by other therapists which she indicated shared her perspective regarding me.

After I left the office, blinded and bewildered, I started to wonder if my feelings of needing to ensure the trust of those closest to me was a result of the previous EMDR sessions and that I did not have adequate coping skills or grounding to ensure that I could have handled any doubts or questions that arose after the EMDR sessions.

I would most graciously appreciate thoughts/comments.

Replies:

Re:EMDR ... unplugged, by JeffreyIsOut, 04/28/04 Re:EMDR ... unplugged, by Sandra Paulsen PhD, 04/28/04 Re:EMDR ... unplugged, by Mary, 04/28/04

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