I am sorry for your sadness too, Tatiana. Your honest courage in realizing your difficult time is in itself part of the healing process, (as you know) and so good for you! And since the internet is a place of comfort for your loneliness, may it always be a source of renewal and strength to you. Your graceful and strong courage gives us all more willingness to face and overcome our own troubles; and informs us that the words on all of these posts from all of these people in cyberspace are indeed authored by feeling flesh and blood persons with real lives.
Although it can sometimes seem trite, out of much sadness will come much joy. I wish for you much joy Tatiana in the New Year.
Best Wishes!