Tatianna, I am very sorry for the loss of your mother and father, my heart goes out to you. Everyone must grieve in their own way. If being on the internet gives you solace during this difficult time then so be it, who is anyone to judge. I empathize with you completely, I too lost a love one recently, the pain of such a loss can alter your life in many ways. You reach out in many directions to find a place of comfort...for you it is the internet. For myself I found the internet a place of loneliness, I didn't find many that really cared or understood my grief, if anything I was avoided. However in a way that experience was a way of discovering who truly loves me and where I belong. For me being on the internet was not a way of finding happiness. I hope Tatianna that you will find your way to a happy fulfilled life. All you can do is live your life to the fullest the best you know how.
My prayers are with you... Summer