This should be interesting.....

Amazing.

I have been through one EMDR session. There will be more. One of the most amazing things for me is that memory during this session took me back to a time when I had no words. It was a mass of sensation and feelings -- colic! among other things -- but at that time I had no words for it. As I was both inside and outside this memory, the subject and observer, I was able to name the feelings, define the sensations.

After the session, I went home, exhausted, and took a nap. I awakened from that nap on my back, thighs drawn up to my chest as a baby on a changing table. (I'd never dont THAT before!) I would continue to process that memory - and some others -- for several days, including colicky pains, which I was able to treat with over-the counter medications.

Has anyone else ever gone back to that time of no words, to a memory that far back?

I am surprised at the ripple effect this one session has had on me. I found myself singing along with the radio in my car later that week, and my voice, which had gone downhill from the time I was small, was rich and full again. I don't know how the connection was made. I don't think I care.

After years and years (I am 54) of some of the most amazing coping behavior to manage the string of trauma in my life, my coping tools got tired and wore out. All the fear and dread -- all the anxiety this brought on -- can be dealt with now. Just knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel -- and knowing it is not another oncoming train, but a lantern held in friendly hands -- makes me feel better already.

This is going to be a fascinating trip.

Anyone else?
Smokey

Replies:

Re:This should be interesting....., by Sandra Paulsen Inobe, PhD, 05/27/02 Re:This should be interesting....., by Smokey, 08/11/02 Re:This should be interesting....., by Sandra Paulsen Inobe, PhD, 08/14/02

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