I'm glad I've found a place to discuss what is most interesting for me: the shame. Until half year ago I knew nothing about the causes of emotional problems I'm having for years. Browsing the Internet I've found very interesting description of how shame is experienced. I was astounded how much its suits what I'm suffering from the most. I've noticed that I have fear from people but I didn't know why !! After reading "Shame: Spiritual Suicide" and "Healing the Shame That Binds You" of John Bradshaw I realized that this is indeed biggest problem of my life. The similarities of peoples stories told in those books to my story are amazing. Unfortunately no pshychologist here in Israel is famliar with "toxic shame". Everybody confusing it with guilt. So I had no choice except to fight it alone. I've managed almost to get rid of anxiety I had and strong feelings of shame in front of the other people but now I'm kind of stucked. I did become more calm but I still depressed and have little interest in whats going on around. Its very hard for me to evaluate my progress in recovery by myself. I wish I could hear from somebody who had/has similiar problems. I'm very interested in everything that envolves shame, new theories, healing methods and so on.