Re: Childhood Trauma

Hi, I just wanted to let you know you aren't alone. Also, I noticed on the post outline that Dr. Shapiro will be offline until Dec. 14, which disappointed me because I was going to post a question to her similar to hers. I have been in therapy for the last 2 years and on antidepressants, I began because of binge eating but quickly the focus evolved to whether or not I have been sexually abused as a child. My scenario has been that circumstances in my life, behaviors on my part as a child and as an adult, and a general suspicion for years that something happened to me are all present. But without any memory of an event I have been swinging back and forth from believing my gut feeling and circumstancial evidence and emotions...to feeling certain that all of the "clues" can be explained away and I am just a sick person for even considering it. Finally in the last 3 weeks some info came up about my grandfather that now has those closest to me in a more "believing" state that something may have happened. (basically, if I do start to remember something about him abusing me, no one will be in total shock) And now with this piece of info for my own knowledge and now that I feel more supported and believed, I am ready to say , Yes ..something happened to me, I am not creating or making up all of these feelings and thoughts. So I told my therapist and she seemed to have been waiting all of this time for me to come to this conclusion and she recommended EMDR (she does not do it but said maybe I could have it done on a consultation basis, going back to her to deal with whatever it brings up) Anyway, I hope that what ever you choose to do, it helps you become happy and healthy. If you ever want an ear to listen, I would be happy to do it. You can email me at skate@zcentral.com. Heidi

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