I hope it is allright that I responded to your writing instead of its intended. I wanted to thank you for your beautiful metaphore.As an artist it has drawn imprints in my mind ,and tears to my eyes .Thankyou for that . On this day of queastions I somehow felt a sense of relief in reading your words . I came to this web site in search of answers ,also in search of kindred spirits in queast for the joy in the here and now .I am in a time of confusion,for me that is unusual.Feeling sad and regretful that I have put myself in such a situation. A young woman who created out of chaos ,a successful and loving ,joyous life .Yong love ,bussiness and spirituality so deep, yet A tiny little presription drug that I had toyed with has now become a haunting figure .Truly an overpowering controller. I have in the past ,been through therapy , counseling ,E S T, Lifespring and I know whats right for me ,but in this ,well, its easy to to tell a stranger ,Im lost. Legal as it is to be in cronic pain I know Im past the point of (healthy pain care). Well sincere butterfly ,in reading your writings and taking a chance ,I thought you might point me in the right direction.Is there a chat room of sorts or are you a gestalt therapist yourself ?If you have any ideas please respond. Thankyou again for your imagery. La Luna