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    EMDR for the numb
    John · 02/21/01 at 10:49 PM ET

    CAN EMDR HELP ME??

    I thought my problem was
    fear (of just about everything in life). Over the last
    few weeks I realize something: I am numb. I am dead
    inside (accept in the case of fear).
    There is nothing in life that I want and
    care about. Or put better, I care AT THE SAME LEVEL as
    do people when they say "want" or "would love" to
    have a billion bucks. Beyond, intellectual "feeling",
    there is nothing. In fact, when I cry, I go into the
    third person and try to evaluate, on the basis of how
    hard I am crying, how I feel.

    It is like I know what I love/want/desire, but I feel
    no burning desire for any of these. I also feel NO
    EMPATHY for any person's suffering (not even my own).
    It is like I have lead my life as if there were two
    options: numbness and fear. I tried to numb myself by
    denying emotions.
    Over the past weeks, when I've felt the
    inkling of something, I've stopped myself from telling
    myself "You don't really feel...". This has lead me to
    feel more emotion and see what I was missing out on.
    but this method has only helped a little.

    Though I can not tie it to a specific trauma (I had a lot of illness and some verbal abuse and, while I feared
    physical abuse (being hit), it never materialized. So I
    not think of some trauma which effected me.

    Replies:
    • Re:EMDR for the numb, by Nikki, 02/22/01

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