EMDR for the numb

CAN EMDR HELP ME??

I thought my problem was
fear (of just about everything in life). Over the last
few weeks I realize something: I am numb. I am dead
inside (accept in the case of fear).
There is nothing in life that I want and
care about. Or put better, I care AT THE SAME LEVEL as
do people when they say "want" or "would love" to
have a billion bucks. Beyond, intellectual "feeling",
there is nothing. In fact, when I cry, I go into the
third person and try to evaluate, on the basis of how
hard I am crying, how I feel.

It is like I know what I love/want/desire, but I feel
no burning desire for any of these. I also feel NO
EMPATHY for any person's suffering (not even my own).
It is like I have lead my life as if there were two
options: numbness and fear. I tried to numb myself by
denying emotions.
Over the past weeks, when I've felt the
inkling of something, I've stopped myself from telling
myself "You don't really feel...". This has lead me to
feel more emotion and see what I was missing out on.
but this method has only helped a little.

Though I can not tie it to a specific trauma (I had a lot of illness and some verbal abuse and, while I feared
physical abuse (being hit), it never materialized. So I
not think of some trauma which effected me.

Replies:

Re:EMDR for the numb, by Nikki, 02/22/01

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