Behavior OnLine EMDR Forum Archive, 1999

    Re: Starting soon--Memories
    Hopeful · 9/16/99 at 12:39 pm ET

    Thank you. I actually had my first session yesterday. It went pretty well I think. Although during the session, after having spent a lifetime pushing this away mentally and suppressing emotions/memories related to it, I could feel myself tighten and push them away again. After having actively tried to forget and not think about this, there's a lot I don't remember. Also, because it started so long ago, there is a lot I don't even know. Did it start with a family member, non-family member, how did I get to point B?

    My therapist says that I have layered a lot on top of that and that part of me which is my protector or survival instinct is very strong. Do you think I might get beyond this instinct? Like I said, even as I was following her hand, I could feel my mind and body physically going behind the wall that protects me from my memory and emotions. I tried to stop it and open my emotions up...I figure I have to in order to heal....but, I could no more stop it than fly.

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    • Re: Starting soon--Memories, by Shapiro, 9/16/99

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